Hyperactive Ghost

Length 1:07. It's chatty, so you can throw it on and work or drive!I saw Front Line Assembly, Gary Numan, and Ministry at Hard Rock Live Orlando in March of 2024, during a point where my exhaustion was beginning to feel too heavy. As a lecturer at a public university in Florida, I knew there would be some tones about my state's politics at the time, but was surprised when Jourgensen took a minute to stir up a pit by giving us a "Fck Desantis" moment that I so desperately needed.What followed was a lil trip through my memories around the issue of my home state, how we should have known how bad it was in my hometown prior to my generation's presence here, and what it would all amount to.But....I also feel sad for the younger version of me who had to learn to do everything alone. I'm still doing that, but I'm trying to change it. I'm grateful for musicians, and I will always remember the tiny mosh pit I created in A/V class in high school. Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

I Was His Cosmic Girl: My Grief Was Hiding Behind the 30th Anniversary of Jamiroquai's First Album.
Length: 56 minutes
I published the written version of this in 2024, not long after the 30th anniversary of Jamiroquai’s first album,“Emergency on Planet Earth,” arrived in the middle of my labor to heal from my past….and it was the loss of what we had that re-emerged as heartbreak and not how terrible it became. Sometimes, it’s an actual war that inspires the war between us and those we love. And some wars, we just don’t win.
I mention some videos in this piece and I've added them to the Ghost Post Songs playlist on my YouTube channel here: https://www.youtube.com/@DoctorBeepBoop
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I saw Blond in Car and Ella Vos at Analog at Hutton in December of 2023, the day before I saw Michael MdDonald do a talk about his book. It turned out that the Ella Vos show spoke to me in a way I wasn't expecting, and I hope to catch a show there again because I really liked that venue.Join me as I ponder about the versions of me: 2023 me, August 2025-me who wrote this and Now-me who is yapping about it. Some things have a depth we don't need to measure.Length 1:08 Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

In October of 2023, after I saw Suzanne Vega, Nick Cave, and Depeche Mode, I saw Royal & the Serpent with Baby Fisher, Dasha, and Jutes. I didn’t recognize their names at the time, but they’ve all since become very popular acts. I just happened to catch them at a small, historic venue.But I also had some things to say about the way artists are treated as a whole, which was more of a reflection about the previous life that had just ended than about the show in October of 2023. A show taking place only a year after I was out of a wheelchair.Length: 38:37Acts mentioned: Royal & the Serpent, Baby Fisher, Dasha, and Jutes. Venue: Exit/In Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

I went to see Nick Cave at Ryman Auditorium in October 2023 where we walked the path of Nick Cave's grief and belief, and sobbed in a pew and sobbed all the way home.I sobbed in a pew.There is no other artist who articulates my experience of grief in the way Nick Cave does. This show felt like the people around me at the show all understood why we were there--to process grief and quietly connect.Hyperactive Ghost is a podcast available on all streaming sources, but if it's not on your favorite one, reach out. Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

In September of 2023, Beep went to see Lana Del Rey in Tampa, FL, where a string of realizations hits a stunning revelation: the line hurts, now....and it seems half of the young women there seem to know this, too. Is the line supposed to be full of hope or full of irony? Likely both.....but Beep makes the realization that she has to leave home.This piece was written in November 2023, before the Substack became anything but a place to store multimodal pieces...so this podcast wasn't planned, it organically grew. Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe

What the last 3 years of my life entailed and how I need to shut the door on them and move on. If this is too sentimental for you, hang tight. We'll be back to trauma, sex, and death in no time. Promise. It’ll just be a little more honest in its fragility. Click and listen to the relaunch of my Substack, which includes this podcast. There was a glitch, but it’s still alive despite some issues! Writer and voice is Beep. Music is by Jeff Matz. Get full access to Hyperactive Ghost at doctorbeepboop.substack.com/subscribe